Written By Ayanna Raj (Grade 11)
I’ve never been enough for anything,
never enough to pick a side
too naive to have a say in anything,
not enough to be loved.
I belong to both sides,
My house is built on a fence,
I’d pray to a God but I don’t know which i believe in,
I’ve never been religious enough anyways.
I have my body that i hate,
and a will to try that won’t be enough,
not enough to save me from hell.
(I don’t think I believe in hell)
So my heart expands to cover the emptiness in my chest,
I give away all my love but is it just to please others?
I believe in everything hoping something believes in me too.
(Why is there a void in my chest. Is my heart a void?)
I’ve never been enough of my mother for her to love me like she does herself,
Too much like my mother for my father to see me as his child,
They love each other except when they see the other in me,
I’m the manifestation of both their rotting halves.
And I’ve never been religious enough,
But you’ve been moulded by nothing less than a God,
Or maybe the universe put all it’s energy into making you,
You’re perfectly enough, you are everything,
So while I’m a half full glass,
My love, let half a glass quench your thirst.
(Today, please God, let me be enough for him)
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