Saturday, April 20, 2024

Social Anxiety

Written By Sumati Varma (Grade 9)

A million thoughts running through my mind,
Don’t know what I’m truly trying to find.
Feeling suffocated by affection,
Yet alone, having lost all connection

I’ve reached a point, where I want to but can not,
A point where I want to feel free, without a single thought.
I want to laugh, I want to learn and all I want is to be me,
But how can I? When these thoughts won’t let my mind and I be free?
How can I? When my conscience just won’t agree.

“Don’t say that, they’ll judge you,
How disgraceful do you think you look from their view?”
Because of these thoughts, I can never even speak when due.

Others tell me don’t be shy,
It’s not that difficult just to say a simple hi,
But my mind says “what if saying only a word sounds dry”?
So all I can do is simply sigh and say that I will try.

However even if I try my best, I cannot win this war,
Because even my loudest scream will never be louder than my thoughts that roar

Featured Image Courtesy – Best Psychiatrist in Jaipur

Sumati Varma
Sumati Varma
Hi, I’m Sumati Varma and I’m a 14 year old ambivert. I have a soft spot when it comes to art, especially poetry and highly respect authors. My poetry usually comes from the darker, deeper aspect of life. My thought process and writings come from people who are suffering or are in pain but can’t find the words to express themselves. So I thought maybe I can do it for them.



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